I don't know where this is coming from, but I may be blessed
I can't be broken
This feeling is unreal.
Just a moment ago, the world seemed too big, and I felt so small. I was absolutely terrified for everything that is happening around me. I felt insufficient.
Now? I feel powerful. I don’t even know why. I was in my bed all day, trying to run away from the pain.
There’s no need to keep running. I’m ready.
I don’t even know what I’m ready for, but I know I have to keep moving somewhere. I’ll figure it out on the way.
What I don’t want is to stay still anymore. I’m done with it for now.
I’m confused. I don’t understand how I went from feeling like there isn’t anything I can do to change my life to feeling like there’s nothing life can do to stop me.
I can’t be broken.
This doesn’t mean that it doesn’t hurt. Fuck, it does hurt, a lot. I can feel it burning all the time.
But it’s alright, because I may be blessed.
There’s something inside of me that keeps pushing me forward and picking me up every time I fall to the ground.
I don’t even know where this thing is coming from, but it’s real; I can sense it.
It’s like a superpower that can only be used when my back is against the ropes. And this superpower is exactly what I need right now.
Life’s going to get tough? So be it. I’m unstoppable.
It doesn’t matter how many times I’m knocked down; I’m going to get up every single time. And I know that metaphor is used a lot already, but it’s exactly how I feel.
Only thing that can stop me is death right now, and if that happens, I finally will be able to stop fighting.